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.*Eating Disorder Survey*.
General
Age?:
15
Height?:
64-65 inches
Weight?:
92
Lowest Weight?:
70
Highest Weight?:
106
What weight do you want to weigh?:
62
What eating disorder do you have?:
ana
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?:
too many beacause of dance and running. around 2,700-3,000. my parents watch me
Do you throw up your food on occasion?:
no
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?:
yes, yes, yes!
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?:
im an irish dance, track, cross country, biking, any form of high-impact and extremly fat burning exercise :)
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?:
yes
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?:
no, i've always eaten to lose weight. i dont want metabolic failure
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?:
no
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?:
yes
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?:
yes, for three fucking months of weight-gaining hell
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?:
no
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?:
yes, after i almost died. my body's better, but i'm still attempting to fix my mind. yet, part of me just CANT let go of ana.
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?:
not fat, but i know that i could and NEED TO BE thinner. i need to be better. i need to be perfect, and perfect is emmaciated, bottom line.
What part of your body would you change?:
i would make myself like six inches taller, but weigh less than i do now
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?:
about a 2
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?:
yes
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?:
yes, to the point of suicide attempts
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?:
not constantly, but i deffinetly do my share of comparrisons
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?:
yeah, for someone with my activity level to maintain a healthy weight. but i wanna be thinner
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?:
no, they're low fat and i need them to exercise!
Fat grams?:
yeah, i try to have low/fat free foods
Calories?:
yeah, even though im ingested those fuckers left and right
Are you often tired/fatigued?:
nope, i have a friend named caffine :))
Do you feel more energised after eating food?:
no!!!!!!!!
Do you eat meat?:
yeah, but i'm working on going vegitarian. if only my parents would allow it.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.:
yes
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?:
they used to.
Have you ever thrown up blood?:
no
Is your heart bpm above 49?:
my heart bpm is 72, but used to be 28. it's been 0 a few times too....
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?:
i used to. my heart shrunk, which brought those into my life.
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?:
no. i thik that it's a mental thing, more so. my brain contains a certain flaw that leads me to critique myself in times of stress/crisis.
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?:
i think that it's not effective. you dont get taught an ed, you develope it yourself. its somehting you've always had, but decides to appear when ever it feels like it.
Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.:
i believe i'm bi-polar. it's genetic :/
What's your favourite food to eat?:
i like brocolli and cottage cheese
Favourite drink?:
i love love love anything diet. or coffee with splena. anything 0 calories!
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?:
eh, sometimes. but i just have to accept that it's a part of me